My Story - Need Help... Is there hope?

[truelovewaits]

Thank you so much for your advice Whiterose. I hope that your H realizes the folly of his ways and recognizes the importance of marriage and returns to you soon. I'm in a difficult situation and although things are great for me I wish I was able to experience things with her. When on the beach in malibu a few weeks ago I experienced a sexual encounter that I had never experienced and enjoyed it very much. Driving home I couldn't help but think how amazing it would have been with my ex. Tonight I met an amazing an attractive female who I will take out this weekend. That said I don't know if it will replace her. Even the woman I'm seeing on a some what serious basis who is amazing is something I compare to. Although she does win in every comparison so far in terms of beauty, education, attraction, knowledge, and spiritual understanding as well as beliefs. Still there is a part of me that wants nothing more than to reach out to my ex and to rekindle the passion and love we once had. I believe we could be so much better. I know I'm amazing now and better than I ever was. I guess I just wanted to share that with her. I appreciate your advice that I cannot contact her but a huge part of me wishes I had the education and knowledge i have now as I feel I could have handled things much better and changed the way things were. Still I also know I don't deserve to be treated the way she treated me. In the end I guess I'll just keep moving forward and allow life to show me the way. Whatever happens, happens.

Thank you for the advice.