Water....good advice about Sat. I have thought thru it a lot since yesterday, and H being to wishy-washy about getting together SAt, makes me want to make plans. I do want to see him, but don't think I'll be available IF he does call. (HE hasn't, yet). I will see him Sun, with S, that's what we planned....so that will have to be enough.
I am working so hard on this detachment stuff. I printed off the Detachment section by Sue (Patience") that B-writer referred to. It's good.
I had my small group last night. I felt like the real Mooka....I was fun, telling stories, sharing spirital info (as we all do)...and I left there thinking....I AM getting back on track....I AM becoming my ole self again. It felt good, and people were drawn to that. That's how I want to continue each day....and want H to see me that way....not the ole "tenative Mooka" I had become the last several months in the LIMBO-LAND with H. Maybe that's a silver lining in this S, that I am gaining strength in who I am again....and getting clearer on what I want out of life.
