Am I ever going to wake up from this nightmare???

[DFE]

My previous thread has disappeared. Not sure what happened to it. Kind of like my life and marriage.

I had taken my wedding ring off but decided to wear it today. My H noticed it at work but didn't say anything. I love him dearly and want this to work. My biggest problem is my lack of patience and wanting instant gratification. I hate the unknown. I just want him to tell me he wants to give us a try. That doesn't mean he has to move back home. Just that he's open to trying.

At times I wonder what I love about this man. He has hurt me and my kids. He has broken up our home. But I also appreciate that he wants happiness for both of us. He told me last night that he's happy with the separation. That it was inevitable. Has anyone had a spouse or been a spouse who has left and was happy but then had a change of heart? What will cause that change? I'm afraid it will be too late.