Hello All.....

Not a whole lot to report, but wanted to bump up a bit!!

I have kept myself pretty busy. The week-end days are easy to fill with productive stuff. Went to a seminar on Sat for my work (it was great!!). Did church on Sunday and ran a bunch of errands. Did some solid exercising, too. It's the evenings on the week-end that are quiet. I had some great phone calls with best friends out west.
But I think the quiet time alone is adding value to my current search. This was my first week-end without evening plans. I did A-OKAY and am proud of it. I'm thinking about my journey and NOT feeling sad.

I've been reading T2's strategy regarding making your own happiness and putting yourself 1st. That is my plan.

This week is crammed full days and nights...with work, social stuff, meetings, etc. I have a couple of close friends here...that I spend time with that make me laugh so hard....we cry with laughter, and those endorphins really kick in! We can also talk and be supportive of sitch. I'm luck to have them in my life.

Ok...h updates:

He calls last Fri, just checking in. Says he will probably not call for a while, til I get back from AZ. (3/22). I remain upbeat, busy, and say ok, that's fine.
He called Mon. morning...simple questions re: kids, finances, etc. I'm in the middle of something, so only can talk briefly. He says he may call again in the next day or 2 BEFORE i leave for AZ. I say "ok, fine." He went on to ask about my week-end....I said" it went well, was pretty busy, had a good week-end." I asked him how his was...he said "oh, it was okay." He seemed subdued. (GOOD!)

What's with all the brief phone calls, I wonder

He also emails with the kids and copies me on all of them...tho nothing directly from him to me. We had agreed to keep ea other informed with all kid communications.

Hmmmm. Just trying to keep myself focused on ME and what I can do to keep in a forward direction.

Ok, now one last thing....a confession of sorts....that your feedback may be helpful on.

I have met a very attractive man who is in this weekly ALPHA course. WE met in Jan. Well, he is divorced (2+ yrs)....he and group know the basics of my sitch. We all share our a lot....it's a spiritual support group of sorts. Not too heavy, just supportive. Anyway....there is "chemistry" between us....you know the glances across the room, extra hugs, 1:1 empathy, concern. Not quite flirting, but it is good for the ego. It's strangely comforting to feel this way. It doesn't feel wrong....just odd to have a sort of attraction. I've been so loyal for so long to H and M....that I haven't stepped back and allowed myself to feel this way. Don't worry, I'm not going to act on this and jepordize my efforts here....but is it wrong to feel that I would like to develop this friendship?

I have no real male friends here....only lived here 2 yrs and my work doesn't really lend itself to male friendship much, like past jobs.

Just thought I'd update you BB pals if you can wade through all this jabber.

Mooka