Hoping for WAS to come home

[JaxFL14]

I was going to send her an email so that I can proof read it many times. I do agree with my IC for sure. I can't give her me right now without me having her. Right now I feel she uses me because she knows I want it to work and that I won't say no on most occasions. I know she feels that divorce doesn't have to be two people that hate each other and don't get along which I understand but she has mentioned spending holidays together down the road as a BLENDED family. ???????????? Yeah, in 5 years ill bring my new wife over for Xmas dinner. That's funny. Right now I'm making this all to easy for her. I've done things to help her cause I want her to realize she needs me. But how will she realize that when I'm still doing them? And I realized that my wife has been telling me she needs a diff type of romance for years. Though I thought I was trying she was telling me by her reading romance novels, telling me she didn't have space to miss me and that I was too available which is hard to make some excited to see you when there is constant contact. Ohhhhh the things I would do differently. Lol