Am I ready for this?

[ForeverYoung]

So things with w are practically back to the norm prior to her meltdown two weeks ago. She's spending more time with the boys and back to telling them she needs girl time, etc. S6 is really pressuring her to come home to stay at night. He brings it up every evening.

Probably best for everyone if you can reassure him that all will be ok. Remember, he's looking to you for security right now. I know you can do this.

I'm doing terrible. I've started waking up at 4 am again with a knot in my stomach. I am just not able to detach at all. I think a lot of it is due to how normal she seems. I find her looking at me often. Getting in my space too much. Twice she has texted me and made comments about how my being nice to her must be an act. She invited me to ride with her to pick up the boys one evening. We're having company over for supper tonight. So many "normal" activities.

Mtn, I know it's tough, but you have to find a way to become content with the new normal. If you're struggling like mad everyday, you'll never make it. Look at some of the other sitches here where the spouse is mean and/or gone. Much better to be where you're at now, I'd say. Accept things as they are and figure out how to make the best of it... for you. Make some changes if you need to.

I feel as though I'm in constant prayer, pleading with God to fix this. I've got to find the strength to keep fighting. It's all I can do not to pursue. I want to chase her and show her what she means to me. This too shall pass.

Just remind yourself that chasing will not help. Your present course of being friends with wife and doing things as a family is best for now. She has to figure out she wants you and her family intact on her own. You have to get to a place where you really are content with things as they are, because as your W has told you, she can tell when you're not. Bust On, my March 2012 BD Buddy!