NERO here- don't let me float away anybody

[RosaLinda]

Nero -- mine is the 111th post on this thread, your thread is going to get locked up soon I fear!

I did not know you two were not legally married, but after 38 years, geez, what is the difference? Except for the paper involved in a divorce, the permanent split would HURT exactly the same. Well it would be cheaper but that's the only difference I think.

I worry about your assumptions, probably because I have them too. Lots of them. I can convince myself that my H is in love with the Tramp and then convince myself that they are only using each other and back again several times in one day. I drive myself crazy. And don't know how to stop thinking about this sort of stuff. During the day it's not too bad, busy with GAL and working. But in bed alone every night I often cry and cry. Last night I couldn't sleep and was reading one of those cozy mysteries, light and fun, and the heroine's husband put his arms around her tenderly and I broke into a waterfall of feeling sorry for myself. I just miss my old H so much. I assume that every second he is in his room with his door shut (he usually only closes it during the day when he is on skype with her, I told him he cannot skype around me any more), I assume that he and the Tramp are telling each other how much they adore each other and having some kind of phone sex type conversation. Which is stupid as the other day he forgot to close the door and I could very clearly hear her giving him a Russian lesson. And he sounded frustrated and tense We are our own worst enemies sometimes!

Yes, I am going to England for 10 days in September. I would never have had the nerve to make a trip like this by myself if H was not going over to Russia to boink RT for a month. See... there are those assumptions again. I don't know if they ever had intercourse. But sure assume it!!! When are you coming back? And how is your H's aunt?