Ruby, doing something for me is probably going to be catching up at work so I don't have a panic attack! I'm thinking maybe this weekend I will go white water. H's friend that I've mentioned before was with H on Sunday and we started talking about rafting and then having a beer at a brew pub. I was showing him pics on the internet and we were talking about beers we would try. H refuses to go with me and also isn't into microbrews.
So, that might be a plan for this weekend, but I think it also got to H a little bit. His fog has lifted quite a bit since then. He had to go to work out of town last night and called to let me know. This am, he let me know where he was working. We also had a few text conversations. Since D has been gone, I've barely seen him.
I have zero expectations with this, but find the behavior interesting. I think I've said it before, but H is in some kind of MLC. The man is liking pics of women who are young enough to be his daughter. Yuck!
I know that he will never file or follow through with anything he says he will do. D is back and forth between wanting us to move and us staying as a family.
Only time will tell, but I am also not willing to stay in the same kind of R. Example, when we went out on the 14th, I looked the best I had in a looong time, and I know that I looked good. H never said a thing to me. However, he is quick to give other women compliments, even skanky ones.
We are not at the point where we can discuss this and I don't know that we ever will. H cannot take any type of criticism and feels that I should know how he feels about me and he shouldn't have to say it.
Only time will tell where we end up, but I think I am prepared either way.
M44 H57 D17 (special needs) M 18 yrs Bomb 7/2/12 Still living together
