Well I haven't posted in awhile I have done some things lately I wish I wouldn't of done hacking her facebook, Email accounts and asking her the question are you seeing someone else IE Gary. I admitted to her about what I had done I cant lie never have been able to And gary she says they are just friends and have been since they were 12 but its just a feeling I get. This last Saturday she was comeing over to pick up our son and Gary was the only ride she could find but she brought her mom also instead of beating him around my yard like a jelouse husband I shook his hand and apologized for never takeing the time to get to know him this really was hard and in a way I felt yes like the bigger man but like I gave a piece of my soul away. but since then I have really backed of she is talking more to me about her day and how our sons day was.
My 180s are going pretty well I have not played a computer game since 6-24-13, and I have lost a little more then 40 pounds walking ,running, working out. I am up for a promotion and interview for it on Thursday nervouse just because with it I will need to move about 2 hours away closer to her and my baby so that's a plus.
I guess the real tougfh sich will be 7-24-13 Its my anniversary not sure how to handle it do I call do I do nothing as if its just another day I am unsure.
I am tryin g to focus on myself my children my faith ,hope, and PATIENCE that's the tough one
