ya think?? you're rite - he's got SOOOOOO much swirling around - buried soooo deep in there- he doesn't talk about it- he runs like mad from it ( like not talking to his mother- just cuts her out- too painful to deal with?) who does that - really.
this guy is masterpeice of fear & running & thinks he's soo tough and in control
it's daunting. i've got as much neurosis, as anyone- but he's soooo immersed & it's sooooo embedded - i don't know if he'll ever break free. a lifetime of covering up- or using people- or fear of letting anhyone really in- i don't even know anymore -.
all i know for sure is we had alot of fun and it was wonderful - til it began to suck because he changed -
he's wearin me out- he's like my mother somewhat. all about her because she's been soooo hurt, etc. well, suck it up you guys- we all feel like that but it's called growing up-
get over it. i'm pretty tired of these wah wah babies torturning the rest of us
thanks for comment tho- i wish anything meant someting. i may not live long enough for this guy to even begin to know , much less confront, alllllll the junk he's got buried in there. he said it back in the day- he knew it all was there - how can it disable him so much now ? maybe he's just a bad apple? simple huh? not deep hidden junk - just that...
wierdly detached at moment & floating along - best i can do to stay "even" in life.
