Thanks for all the advise. I know I'm in it for the long haul. My friends that I am with are very supportive of me. I am doing everything I can right now to really make sure my kids are having the time of there lives. It is hard, I've taken lots of pictures of them I know she would love, but I'm not about to send them to her unless she reaches out to me first. If she asks how they are, I'll send a couple, but otherwise I am keeping it to myself, at least til we get home.