I am so happy that you are so convinced that you will renconcile with your H Ruby, not a bit delusional! And I agree that he will not want to risk losing you and your friendship again. 

You are doing a great job at DBing. I know how hard it must be to have this half on-half off relationship, but think you're doing a great job of giving him space yet being available for him. A difficult balancing act for you.  

Linda

Me 65, Ex 64
M 38 y
2 adult S, 4 G-Kids
MLC 11/07
BD 12/09
D 3/14
Dating nice guy 7/14
Engaged to nice guy 12/17