SFC_Swede, I just wanted to say I sympathize with what you're going through with the in-laws. I haven't heard a peep from any of my in-laws since BD. I think the reason it hurts so much is that it's another rejection and a negation of the bonds you previously thought were unbreakable. Now we realize they're all just words, and like so many things, easily rescindable when they become inconvenient.
My word, I'm feeling negative today. I apologize.
Ok, I dont feel like I am alone in the wilderness here. You nailed it exactly! Yes, it broke Sandi2's rule...I should have and do know better...but the constant rejection of people who previous to BD that were so caring and loving, and whom I gave my unconditional support and love just got to me.
I am just tired of being alone. And the M and impending D is just one layer of the mess that is my life right now. Some days its hard to get up and find a reason to continue. I have been abandoned by my government, my community, and family...and for what? I wronged no one...only got myself hurt in service to each of them. Not to sound depressed and negative...but theres a quote that I found that mirrors my current state of mind:
"I was prepared to fight, I was prepared to be wounded, I was prepared to be captured, I was even prepared to die. But I wasnt prepared to be abandoned".
Me-45,W-36 M-12 yrs, T-15 years SS- 16 Nov 2003 Initial B date, 2-3 others since EA/PA OM 2003-2004 Reconciled 2004 May 2013 Final BD, W completely detaches W files D June 2013 I am moving out 26 July 2013
