I wish I could be more heartless. And I even wish I could hate him. But I don't despite everything. Woke up sad this morning but I am going to fake a PMA and go to work and distance myself. This cycling is hard. Just when I think I'm more accepting of things it hits me like a ton of bricks. The only thing I've done differently on my last two down cycles is not share it with him. Making extra effort to hide and eventually combat the feelings.
Me 35 H 34 DS- newborn 8/13 T 8.5 M 7 H's EA - 10/11 INILWY 5/13 DBing 6/13 Don't know WTF to do 1/14
