Hi all my regular supporters.....Wiley, Sue, KAW, Cindy, T2....anyone else willing to help/advise?!?!?

Just wanted to update my sitch. H and I have been talking a lot the last few days. We had a great talk re: kids, logistics of his move, briefly updated him on my spiritual journey, counceling, close friends.... I was very calm, listened well (no interruptions!!) validated his need to move out and figure himself out. He talked about his constant headaches lately, how hard it is to set up apt with phone, cable, payments, etc. I just listened and nodded. A few days ago he said "we probably should give each other space for the first several weeks and then get together and have a quality discussion." Then yesterday he said he'd call me when I returned home next week-end to update d response, then thought we should have lunch the following Sat to discuss son, then offered to go with me when I buy new car, then suggested we drive to our son's college together the following Sat to talk with him. So much for keeping our distance!?!? He obviously, either changes his mind alot, or forgets some of what he had said before. I just nod and say, "that sounds fine."

Added bonus for me....just thought some of you might be interested. I am taking an "Alpha" course (non-denominational beginner course from my church about the beginnings of Christianity) Anyway....have met some great people in my small group ( 2 D men, 1 single woman, and 4 couples in our group) We have all gained lots of trust and shared our present situation. Lots of support....really genuine support...and everyone has a "story." Anyway, yesterday we had a Sat. training session (5+ hrs) my group broke out in regular intervals....and the last time we did the group prayer thing. It was ELECTRIC....I mean really God was present for sure (and I'm not a Bible thumper....really!) The group took turns praying for each others' needs/sitch. It was powerful, for sure. And for the last 24 hours, my heart feels so light....like God has taken over, I'm gonna be ok....and it feels real. I'm not just trying to convince myself. It's a wonderful sense of peace and light. I feel really good....even tho my life is about to change dramatically. I can't really explain it any better than that.

Last night H called (he's on a bus. trip) and told me he thought we had a high quality discussion Sat morning and has had a lot of time to reflect on all I've said. He also asked about my Alpha training, as he knew I was excited to go. I told him it was great. No other details. I will see him Tues, then he leaves again Wed for another business trip, then I leave Thurs to see d, then he moves while I'm out of town.

Soooooo....just wanted all to know, I AM feeling quite strong at the moment.....that's great for me. Thanks for caring enough to read this all the way through!

LOL, Mooka