I mentioned Sunday's sermon on Esther. One of the things that was pointed out is that Esther was a beautiful woman. She was the most beautiful woman in the persian empire. But what made her truly beautiful was her character.
Your wife may be beautiful on the outside, but she is a selfish inconsiderate woman. The inside is rotting. She is not a prize. I think you need to think more about what is on the inside than what you see on the outside.
You deserve better. She is a curse on your life, not a blessing.