I am trying to figure out how to go about doing this "dark" thing. I dearly need to find some peace. The constant worrying, hoping, crying, stressing, etc. is really breaking me down. I am at the end of my patience, in hopes that wife will return. She asked me today about taking Daughter on a camping trip with OM. She asked, because it would interfere with my visitation day. I get that. She was being considerate of my time with daughter, but it doesn't make it any easier for me to stomach. I agreed to let daughter go and make the time up at some other point. I tried to keep the text conversation as short as humanly possible. I don't want to talk with wife anymore. Actually, I feel stupid even referring to her as "wife". I need to stop that. I just want some peace, for myself. I need to find a way to come to grips with that fact that this thing is over. My marriage is done. I feel completely broken, and emotionally drained. I just want some peace and happiness back in my life. How do I go dark without becoming distant and cold? Does it even matter? I mean, why am I trying so hard to keep a loving, caring connection with this woman who doesn't choose to reciprocate? Why am I not telling her, "have fun, good luck and get F%&#ed!"?
