Am I ready for this?

[Mtnman]

Thanks tvs and rH. I've been thinking a out the sitch you both mentioned about holidays without my boys, or seeing my w with someone else. It haunts me to think about that. Another nugget that keeps me fighting, and I can't quote the source and will be paraphrasing. But it is why let another person reap the benefits of our spouses journey.

The boys stayed away last night and being home alone always gets me down. W has asked me to go pick them up with her if I want to.

I telephone called in to my first al-anon mtg today. The subject discussed was detachment. It was amazing to hear how the db and al-anon principles relate in so many ways.

Two phrases that touched me were:
1. This tragedy will happen with or without me, so why not remove myself from the event.

2. I will neither cause a catastrophe to happen nor prevent one.

Both seemed to apply to our dealings with mlcers.

I will see this through.