She is gone and not coming back

[MrBond]

Actually it does matter to see what damage was done and what can be done moving forward. Besides it affects you. Regardless of what you think, things can always change. The problem is that I think you've always been pessimistic to a certain degree and continue to think that just because you aren't seeing any changes in your W, that the dynamic isn't changing.

But if you don't want "false" hope. Then good luck to you. BTW, there's no such thing as "false" hope. Either you have it or you don't.