"Years ago and I was taught to do this and do that which I had followed but outside of the church the ones that was telling me that I couldn't do that or this they were doing what they said we couldn't do."
But this doesn't affect YOUR relationship to God. If you don't like the people in a specific church, go to another one.
"I don't understand why I have to attend church to believe in god. "
You don't have to go to church to "believe" in God. It's a matter of support and healing. When you find a good church, you'd be surprised with the lessons you can learn from it.
To be honest, you should not have gone to your H's birthday. He didn't directly invite you after all, you had to find out from a third party.
You are going to have to show him that you are not a pushover any more. The fact that he texts the OW right in front of you constantly is a slap in the face. You don't need to be extreme about it, but you need to establish your boundaries now.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
