She always says our marriage was only a convenience anyway (because we lived together for many years). When I did converse (pushing away, I know...) I let her know my intention was not to fight if she wanted to end it, because of that. And when I made the big mistake in talking about her R with OM was to say that if it didn't work out I hoped we might be able to reconnect (or something... paraphrasing myself again).
I only mention this, not to ask for more reminders of why this was just pushing her further. I get that. :-( I mention it because at least she knows my intentions. I do understand that right now even she might not know what she thinks about any of this and I try to remember the rule "don't believe anything she says...."
