Thanks Thumpered. We're already at the stage where she's going to file, because she signed paperwork, and I'll be served.
But, I am going to go completely dark. It has been almost exactly two months since she left. Maybe I can keep my cool for another month and maybe she'll cool off - I know there's no absolutes about these times, but just hoping.... I think she's burned thru a lot of anger, but I'm sure there's a lot still there. I know I pushed her into this and into that R even more. I know it in my head but my heart failed at the critical moment. :-(
It hurts so much, because of the OM thing. I know that other people understand and have felt that hurt, also more than once, as is my case.
I just hope and pray that the foundation this new R is built on has cracks, and that it will crumble. With my health, and the depression, and the isolation, I just don't feel I have enough resources within me to hang in there and stay healthy and employed long enough to see any hope of making it thru this. My job is so demanding - I'm on call again soon, and can't take any time off any time soon.
