I am kind of confused right now ....I used to be so sure of myself and decisions....before all this crap happened last year. Although I've gained a lot of ground for myself, interests, work, life in general...when it comes to this R, I feel like a mush-head. Uncertain, so much of the time.
Wiley thought I should act confident...almost like I'll be fine...giving him permission to separate. LL and T2 are encouraging me to be more honest, to say that this is not my choice on how to resolve our M....but yet not cross the fine line to push him further away. UGH....this is hard. H has said on many occaisions, that he has to figure his own stuff out, what he wants...before he's even willing to think about working on M. He thought life was too easy, we do maintenaance well, we get along fine, living in limbo the past 6+ months...but H has not made any progress in his personal well being or happiness.
So what to do. I'm floundering right now. I work this evening, so we probably won't talk much until tomorrow morning...that's his best time.
I know I'll be ok in the long run. I'vemade an appt with my C for Wed afternoon....she's great, from Michele's office. This is a significant 2-3 weeks coming up. He may be out by March 1st.
Ideas, thoughts...anyone??
I'm becoming overly obsessed with trying to save this...
....I used to be so sure of myself and decisions....before all this crap happened last year. Although I've gained a lot of ground for myself, interests, work, life in general...when it comes to this R, I feel like a mush-head. Uncertain, so much of the time.
