Blindsided

[chl0901]

Yes, lost, I definitely agree with you. H was very supportive through my pregnancy with our S, and I couldn't imagine feeling like I do now while pregnant. Hang in there, I know it's tough for you! And, no, I don't mind you saying all that...I have very mixed emotions about all of this. We had been planning to try for baby #2 the end of this year anyway, so I've been mentally preparing for that for a long time now and it's disappointing that H is going through whatever it is he's going through right now.

Even with all of this going on, I am looking forward to our vacation in a couple of months. I'm hoping it will be a nice time and who knows, maybe will help bring us closer together (holding out hope!). I'm going to keep DBing and try not to let H and OW get to me too much until that time and re-evaluate everything after and see where we are then. Who knows, my sitch could be totally different in three months (not that everything will be better or anything, but maybe H will feel more attracted to me then and things could be different with OW then).

Woke up feeling pretty down this morning (just about the whole sitch), but am trying to keep up my PMA and be in a good mood (it's like halfway working)!