It has been a few weeks and I am still in a rut with my exL, so I need to confess some embarrassing numbers:
It has been 6 months since I have had sex. I know a lot of us have had worse dry spells, but that really [censored] because we were really hot and heavy.
6 months since he initiated calling me.
5 months since we kissed and saw each other naked- not real sex
4 months since we held hands and really looked into each others' eyes- we fought thereafter-he insulted me-no more communication
2 months since he put his arm around me, visited me, sat with me, acted interested in me- then his friend hit on me- I was really confused by this interaction? Was he passing me off or did he get jealous? Was it a coincidence, a cruel joke, a test, or just a misunderstanding?
6 weeks since he texted me to see where I was at the baseball game- I got a glimmer of hope- but then he introduced me to the woman he was dating-the woman he said he had no interest in because she was nice but not hot and was going through a divorce with two kids- how cruel to even tell me that
The worst part of this timeline is how he fed me crumbs and I kept taking less and less until he really knocked it into me that I was not the woman for him.
And I miss him? Why? It has been even longer since he told me he loved me or that I was beautiful. He gave me so little. What am I missing?
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
