Need help detaching

[lost_hope]

So after threatening that he "wouldn't be there for me" in the hospital (nice, huh) he is now adamant that he will be there and wants to be the first person to see his son. So he is coming into the OR with me (c section). If I can have two people then I will also bring my mom. She is flying in from the US (I live in Canada now) to be there for me and will stay with us for two weeks. We are closing on our condo at the end of the month (after baby's birth) and also getting possession of our new house on the same day. But bc we have some work to do on it we are going to be living with my MIL for 1-2 months first. So I will have her support when my mom leaves, and I guess his by default. I am so hoping he will fall in love with his baby, if not me, and get back on track with me and his new family.

I am going in to see a prenatal social worker to discuss the preventative measures in more detail and yes I am being proactive about it. I shared this with my H and he wants me to "wait and see" but bc I've been previously diagnosed with general anxiety (and situational depression that cleared in a couple of weeks) I am really, really at risk here. And I just want to do what's best for my baby. More than me, more than my H, more than my marriage, I just really really want to do the best for him.