Blindsided

[chl0901]

Thanks, Mimi, I would love to have another child with my H but want him to be there for me physically and emotionally before that happens.

Does anyone have any advice on how to work on not letting thoughts about H and OW bother me so much? I am trying not to let it affect me but it is driving me crazy and I cannot stop thinking about them. I haven't snooped lately, but I'm still consumed with jealousy and anger and I know he can see a difference in my body language when it's really bothering me. I'm trying to be the W only a fool would leave but this is affecting my moods and I don't want to sabatoge myself. I have known this OW since high school and she even attended our wedding! I knew I always didn't like her for a reason, but H has always maintained they are "just friends." And now look what is going on! I have not and do not plan to confront H about her but it's really difficult to not let it affect me. I understand that I need to keep working on myself (which I think I have been doing pretty well overall so far) and ride it out but it's just so hard for me. Part of me wants to confront H and kick his sorry cheating butt to the curb but most of me wants MY H back and to work it out.

And he's still acting like everything is "normal" and fine. Makes me sick!