What a nightmare of a day this has been. I know better than to get into texting sessions with xh. He keeps attempting to reach a settlement this way. I am so resigned to moving that I seriously no longer care. I'm detached from my house and the life that I have here. I'm trying to accommodate the desires of my oldest son who wants to stay here and finish high school. I feel strongly in my gut that I need to move. Staying here isn't good for me so what kind of mom will I really be. This will just continue to be an uphill battle.
It's obvious that xh's life is falling apart. It's only a matter of time before he runs away from OW. I just don't want to be around any of this anymore.
The boys start counseling this week and even though I really like the counselor the purpose is now skewed. He is going to contact xh and let him know that he needs to start dealing with his issues simultaneously. I wonder how that will go over.
I feel so stuck. I'm trying to meet the needs of my boys and myself. Who do I put first?
