The intimacy issue I was talking about goes like this: At random times....usually the evening after wine/champagne....he might offer a back rub, or follow me upstair when I take a bath....whatever.....then we enjoy each other....but not full on making love. He's definately attracted to me and missing it all...and willing to make me feel good. Then the next morning, he acts distant....yet want to talk. He says things like, "had too much wine last night, got carried away...and it just confuses me more. Makes him wonder what the heck he is doing. He says he's worried I'll read more into it. I respond with...."Hey, it was fun, felt good, and just takes the edge off a little. I have said many times that I have no expectations here....know that we have a lot to work out and am not reading anymore than that into it." He seems relieved.....but acts guilty or something. I spoke with my C about this, she helped me think through it...and thought I should just act casual about it all. That's what I'm trying to do.
I enjoy the intimacy...after all we've been together 27 yrs. It's fun for me....and yes I would love to read more into it, but will not allow myself to do that. Low expectations....be a friend....lovingly distant. What do you think? I am facing challenges I had never even dreamed of or seen in the movies!!
