Rough weekend. But I'm feeling stronger right this minute. I have therapy in a couple hours. That will help.
I feel like I've taken a big step toward accepting he's not coming back. And a big step toward realizing it will never be the same if he does and starting to have little thoughts of not wanting him back. And thinking maybe I really would be happier married to someone else.
I still know if he showed up at the front door and asked to work on it, I would say yes. But I feel like I'm accepting that isn't going to happen.
So. Now I'm going to focus on selling the house. It's a big project and I think it will help take my mind off of this. And maybe that's a big step toward detaching and GAL and who knows what could happen in the future. I'm going to stop answering his calls. Every time I feel strong, he calls and I'm weak again. I've got to put some distance between us so I can heal and stop feeling so emotional every day.
I've got a busy week. That will be good for me. I'm getting my kids in therapy this week, getting the house ready, hoping to have it on the market by the first, have support group, etc...
So. Onward and upward. I can survive without this man.
