I went back and read your first posts-about breastfeeding, you will be able to breastfeed if you want. For some women, breastfeeding is preventive for PPD. If you need ADs, there are only a couple that you absolutely shouldn't take while BFing and for the others, the benefits usually outweigh the risks.

Are you living in the US?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

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I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss