I have tried it all. I can pull myself up, for the moment. However, once I am finished with whatever it is I am doing, my mind races right back to focusing on wife. Almost every morning for the last couple weeks I have woken up, dreaming or consciously thinking about my wife and marriage. I don't know how to stop that. I am sleeping for crying out loud!
I am really struggling with putting her behind me and moving forward. I will not lose myself though. I refuse to let this portion of my life control my future. I just need to get through it, some how, some way, so that I can move on.
I am going to try my best not to engage wife anymore, other than in regards to daughter or divorce agreements. I just need to let it happen, the quicker the better at this point.
