I think it is absolutely possible that we could meet up for a bit - my sister is awesome, and I know she would understand
It has been so crazy around here, but I did not forget about the alt. I need a new email - long story - but I will have some free time tomorrow and will work on getting stuff set up
Look at us, GALing AND doing something from our bucket list!
Very excited
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I'm glad I had that happy thought in my brain because I am feeling a bit down tonight.
H was nice today. But... I have been so guarded about his niceness, and it's difficult for me to accept that he may be nice just to be nice. I'm always looking for that alterior motive ( usually guilt).
He made breakfast for all of us today. Vacuumed. Carried all the groceries in from my car (which he does most of the time). Charged up his little music thing for me to take to my spa trip tomorrow (it was his idea to take the music thing - he said he thought I would like to use it by the pool).
So all this niceness, yet I'm feeling unsettled. I think it is because 1. I think he's with her tonight and 2. As I see more of my "old" H, I miss him more. Boy, do I miss him.
I just keep reminding myself that progress is slow, but I do believe it is there.
I guess what it comes down to is that I wish he didn't "need" her anymore. I think to myself, what does she have that I don't? And the answer is nothing. Not a damn thing. (Except maybe a boat load of issues, obviously!)
And the weird thing is, I believe a part of H knows this.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Okay, done wallowing (sort of), onto my big day tomorrow...
It's my spa getaway!!!
A dear friend of mine (who knows what is going on) and I are driving to a resort about an hour away for a spa/ pool lounging/wine drinking/ no kids or H overnight trip. We are so excited!!! We are both busy moms who turn to each other when the frustrations of motherhood and life get us down.
We have been planning this for a long time, and I am so glad it is finally here
Going to try to get some sleep now - busy day of pampering tomorrow
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
