No, I haven't detached. It hasn't even been 4 months. This is all very fresh and unexpected. This man has been promising his love to me for 15 years. I'm doing my best.
My life has been turned upside down and I don't know which way is up. I have been a stay at home mom for 11 years. I still feel at his mercy, I'm completely dependent on him for everything at this point and he knows it. It's a crappy feeling but I am so emotional I don't think I can handle a job yet...and any job I get is going to be a pittance compared to what it really takes to support myself and the children.
I'm just venting, nobody can make these feelings go away.
I have a phone session with my coach on Monday and IC on Tuesday. I'll survive. I just wish I could push fast forward and get to the happier times everyone says are coming.
