Did you say you are going to find another counselor? You need some place where you can only be sad about this or you'd go crazy! My whole family is in my mother country so I don't even have my immediate family's shoulder to cry on here. And I don't ever talk about my sitch to my friends anymore. My MIL fortunately is very sweet and I sometimes go see her but we don't talk about our situation that much. We try to talk about something else.
Instead I schedule IC every 2 weeks or so and DB coach where I can. Like you I didn't like my original counselor so I recently switched to a new one and thank god I did. New one lets me be sad, lets me grieve whereas the original one was so upbeat that she didn't give me a place to be sad. I often well up while working out at the gym but strangely I find it little relaxing because everyone's busy working out so they don't know I'm crying
Today I don't have a plan either except DB session I had this morning, which was really good. My coach put some things into a different perspective than I did and now I feel like I have new tools. You and me both are going dark with no kids so we don't have excuses to contact our WAS. When you talk to a counselor they can see things differently and often suggest approaches you've never thought of before.
Try to find a place where you can release your sadness and then GAL
M37 H36 M8 T12 inc 3yr L-dist 7/12:H broke down 10/12:H dad D frm W4. BD soon after 1/13:H wants to leave 2/13:H gpa passed. Feels closer but H still leaving 3/13: S begins
