I think I've regained some perspective. My best friend and her daughters are visiting later today. She's here for a very short time to see old friends. We've been looking forward to seeing each other so we can plan our trip to see them in a few weeks and talk about the move I want to make. I'm not going to let this setback ruin our visit. I have plans to make a nice dinner and make my home as welcoming as I can. No tears today.
I talked with my dad last night who very much understands my need to move. They love having me and the boys and hour away but believe a fresh start would be in our best interest. He and my mom made a major move when I was a child because they too needed to get away from painful memories and start over.
So, one step at a time. I will have the life I want, but not immediately.
