Need help detaching

[lost_hope]

Thanks for the support chl0901 and littleGTO. Yes it helps knowing that in a month ill have a little person who will take all of my attention away. Despite all this turmoil I am soooo over the moon to meet my little man. One months to go!

I'm going to continue to pack, prepare at my mother in laws house (we're staying there for a couple of months while H does repairs to the new place), and yes GAL! You know what's funny? I guess I'm a bit of a dork bc I really love going to bookstores and reading so it's totally relaxing GAL activity to do while pregnant.

I'm still reading DB. And implementing 180s too. After a few days of cycling down I had one full day of doing it right. I'm very nonchalant with him and he's remained home (as opposed to running away). We even had dinner together last night and I sat with him on the couch watching tv until the baby decided to position himself in a way that sent me to bed.

Key to my survival is not only acting as if his actions don't bother me but also acting as if he is gone and not coming back. He is here physically but has emotionally left the marriage. We both are committed to our son so I am trying to maintain a friendship with him and allow him to be in our sons life as much as possible. (His stated intent is to live with us mostly and then spend the other tome at his moms who lives 5 min away).

I will employ full on DB after baby is born. And of course my not so secret wish is that he meets his son, recognize some of my 180s as a positive, and falls back in love with me and his family. Barring that these techniques will still help me be a better person and ultimately better mother regardless of whether he comes back or not.

I'm literally taking it one day at a time. Thinking too much ahead hurts my heart and head. Thanks for listening and have a good day.