To little Too late

[2little2late]

Well I am thoroughly confused here. I have given in to the fact that I cannot change my wife's mind to work on our marriage. After all of my pleading this was her last email to me:

I know. You are a wonderful person Wayne. I am sorry for all my faults and limitations. And for not being the person you hoped I would be. That lawsuit really changed me as a person and not for the better I don't think. I am sorry i did not communicate better or in a way you understand. i guess we don't each other as well as we thought. I just feel like my life is slipping away. And I want to live it before I can't anymore. And I want that for you too.

This was mine to her:

Carey,

I hope that you had a good time with Lisa. You left on difficult terms with me trying to convince you to think my way but I have heard you. I understand that you don’t want to try and salvage our marriage. That you just want to get out of it and this house and you feel trapped in both. That you have been left out of almost every major decision in our lives but this choice to better yourself is something that you have thought long and hard about and you will not back down from.
I can see it in your eyes and can hear it in your voice how serious you are.
I know that what you are doing is very tough for you and takes a lot of courage. You are trying to do what’s best and I will not criticize you and try and stop you from moving on with your life.
Don’t worry about me and how I will react. I have no choice in this matter than to do what is right for us as a whole. Your happiness will directly affect Malaya’s happiness and her feeling of being loved by both of us.
I will not do anything to upset that.
Being upset Friday night was because of my assumption that we were starting to connect again. It was my mistake. I thought that there was a chance for us but after waking up from sleep you were still not home and with no call to me I was worried and upset.
You have been very clear about your feelings and what you want. I understand now that I have no right to those feelings anymore as hard as it may be and I am sorry. I won’t do that again.
I don’t want to stand in your way to find happiness and since we have Malaya I want to be as involved with her as I possibly can. I have really grown to love your family as my own. I was very upset by the finality of our conversation yesterday. It was a bad reaction. Losing you is not what I want but if I can’t have you as my lover and wife then being a friend and the best parent that I can to Malaya is what I want to be.
As drastic a turnaround as this may seem I guess I realize that no matter what our relationship is her emotional wellbeing is truly what is important as we move forward. Like I said, I would give my life for her, without hesitation.
I would rather be your friend and have a life close to Malaya than a bitter and frustrated person and not. We have seen in Joey how a lousy dad can affect a good kid. I don’t want that for her.
Let’s do what it takes to protect her innocence. I will do whatever it takes because life without Malaya would be hell and I am thankful that you are giving me this chance to be involved.
Carey the pressure is off. I do hear you and respect your wishes. I know that what you are doing is extremely difficult and you feel is what is best for us as a whole to move forward.
You are right. I need to just accept this so I can move on also and be a part of Malaya’s life.
We can talk and figure this out when the dust settles.


Me
Since then my daughter has been away with her grandparents and I have implemented "Sandi2's 37 Rules" but now what? Should I just keep up with that while I reread the book and now 5LL?