My Christine alarm just went off!!! Someone in NY care about you, so {{{{{{{{{{Christine}}}}}}}}}}}}.
First--take a deep breath, and another, and another. Second, happy to hear the surgery went well.
Now, don't let your head run wild, but obviously, you have to think about all that has been going on recently and try and get a sense of the landscape. While you sitch got so much better, I don't recall you ever discussing any resolution of the the underlying issues that brought you here in the first place. If you've done so, great--think about those talks.
I know others may disagree, but I think full M recovery requires some deeper exploration of these past R issues to move forward--AND, with a good C if you find one (I hope to have the chance one day).
Shades of OW are not inconceivable, especially if you were away for a while, and he had not shed this part of of his life. Still, they may be just thoughts in his head as opposed to any actual ongoing contact, so don't let meandering thoughts of a worst case scenario paralyze you.
Get back to doing exactly what brought you two together in January. Think, be positve, and be solution-based. You've already succeeded once; there should be no doubt you can succeed again. KOFTGF
