Hoper continues..

[hoper]

Hello,
I lost my previous thread..Hoper1's story..
I guess not been posting regularly ..
Musings and update..
Well, no D talk lately..Until a few months ago H would open his mouth and go wah! I want a D .. Like its the biggest candy in the store and I need to buy it for him..
Many BD later I am no longer apprehensive and I know now will no longer be so easily startled by his thoughts and demands..
No idea why he stopped d talk.. Could be job threat.. Texting is way less..not sure whether all ok in A town..

He initiates conversations.. Makes plans which involve s.. Suggests restaurants with my fav cuisine..
But no talk of 'I want work on this marriage' either , hence not taking any of the above too seriously , just appreciate the changes as compared to the previous year..

He does not share much what's going on his life even regarding the job search..
That hurts as until now we always use to dissect the pro's and cons together..

I get the feeling that he no longer wants to lash out and blame me for everything but neither does he feel enough for me to work on this marriage..

So onto maybe a new limbo land then..

Me..
I feel stronger ..I do feel I will be able to tackle anything that the future brings..
I do hope that it's not only due to the less texting..

I have been trying to do the right thing most of the times.. That's what db is all about I think.. Being purely reactive to an MLC er weakened me..

I am fairly detached I like to believe, don't go around dancing if he initiates LM..as he yet doesn't make any plans that just involve me so that says it all too..
Enjoying my time with s..signed up for a new course.. Yet looking out for part time options..

I do like to come here because of the wonderful people here ..they make this journey way less painful and surprisingly even fun..

Thanks guys!!