Hi everyone,

Please bear with me if there are typos in this post. I just had lasik this afternoon and, even though I am seeing better than I ever have in my life, the computer is quite blurry.

I had a shocker tonight! Things were going along quite well since Jan 23. Just the other day H and I were discussing refinancing the house and our trip this summer to Machu Pichu. However, in the last couple of days I have noticed a shift. Wednesday, on my birthday, H and I were having some pre- fun and then I suggested that we go to the bedroom. He said no at first, then he agreed. Hmmm. He had seemed agitated for the last couple of days.

Tonight, after my surgery, he suggested that we go out to dinner. I was up to it as long as he realized that I am not 100% due to my surgery (but I seem to improve by the minute...it's amzing). During dinner, he asked me what "my" plans were for refinancing the house. I jokingly replied that "we" were going to do this and that. He said, "No 'we' are not going to do that. Don't you remember what I told you?" He went on to say that he felt like everything that he discussed with me regarding S was in vain and that I was in a fantasy. I said that I though that we were working things out. He replied that it was all just superficial and, if I didn't see it, then I was even more delusional than he originally thought.

I started getting those old insecure feelings again and I asked if something had happened recently. Then I backed off and he said that he wanted to talk tomorrow and that things haven't changed.

This is so weird! Just earlier we were talking about putting his daughter on our insurance, but we would have to wait until NOvember. I really wasn't expecting this! This is a new one for me.

I have noticed that he was a bit crancky the last few days, but I wasn't expecting another bomb. I'm wondering if the OW is rearing her pretty little head.

Thoughts from my friends please!

Christine

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