Oh, SP, I so feel your pain. BUt, I agree w AS and others...you need to stop analyzing why your wife is where she is. It doesn't get YOU anywhere.

You need to detach, and I think you know how. NC w your wife (or as little as possible).

"I need to end it." I recently came to this conclusion as well. BUt, for me I felt myself getting closer and closer to wanting this myself. You have to feel ready--on your own time.

Forget about what your W is doing/that she is w OM. What do you want going forward?

SP, you are worth the love of someone who will love you back. You need to heal, so you need to decide what it will take for you to move forward with your life and change your focus to You completely!

M- 18 T-21
S-14,11 & 10
BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA)
H moved out 11-3-2012
10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life.
11-25-13 Jointly filed.