The firsts of everything seem awkward. Birthdays.... Holidays... Anniversaries...
Trust me. Yeah.
I've had my own birthday and our anniversary since he BD'd, I was ok, but for some reason his birthday made me feel some kind of way this morning. Not sure why....
...and here I am, worried he's alone on his birthday. Then I sign in to FB and see he's having a celebration tonight at a fancy establishment.
I just have to keep reminding my self to believe little of what he says (he told me when he went back he was going to cut off a lot of people from his life, that he has no one, his co-workers aren't really friends they just thrive off of his energy and add nothing of worth in return)
He's living life & *seemingly* having lots of fun.
I'm supposed to be going to the gun range next week. Something I've never done before, and no one would every in a million years imagine me with a gun! Should be a fun, stress relieving, 180/GAL. lol
me: 30 H:30 tgthr:7 m:4 no kids 5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012 long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012 official BD: July 2013 nothing filed 1/1/14 I dropped the rope
