Not a whole lot new going on in my world. Just taking it day by day.
I'm still feeling good about myself and confident with direction my life is heading. It feels great to know I'm living my life and being authentic with who I am; first time ever with many things. I don't play the why game anymore and mostly go about my day figuring out my new life without obsessing over what anyone else is doing. I still have the occasional down moments when something gets triggered (almost always about loss of family or what kids won't have later) but they doesn't last long and I don't need to consciously work through them, it just happens on it's own and I move on. We've had quite a few showings on house but no offers yet. I know it will be tough moving out and will have some tough patches with kids but overall I'm excited for this next step. I continue to move stuff out into storage or garbage. I had no idea I had this much crap; I've gotten to know the steel collector truck driver... My golf game is starting to get back in form and more importantly I've hooked back up with some old friends and we are having a blast. They still struggle with my "healthy BS lifestyle" as they call it (i.e. I don't get drunk) but we still have fun. My running is going well and my knee is doing ok. Started running with marathon team on Saturday mornings which is new for me. I enjoy running alone but one of new things for me is to join groups and meet new people. It's been nice with group because it keeps me from getting bored on the longer runs. I usually start zoning out around 5 mile mark, tomorrow we're doing 13 miles and will start increasing every week until race so nice to have someone to talk with (more on that...). I've also started swimming because I think I'm going to give a half triathlon a go next spring.
Kids are doing pretty good and are full on in summer mode. D7 and I just went to Cedar Point on Wednesday to ride some coasters. She went bigger then I thought she would and we had a blast. It was 96 deg and we made it 12 hours (lots of water rides and puppy eyes from her to keep dad going). She's also busy with swimming (3 firsts and a 2nd in last meet racing in age group up from her against kids 2-3 years older). Sorry had to brag a little... S5 and I have a few father son things planned for next couple weeks and have been on a few 'guy adventures' in the woods behind our house. We spend a lot of time together with all 3 of us but I'm trying to spend quality time with each individually doing things they like. I think this is critical to do, especially for us dads. I used to date my D7 once a month and need to figure out a way to continue to do this with both kids, maybe more important now then ever.
W and I are cordial. She seems to be initiating more conversations and being more friendly overall. She's also more engaged with kids which I'm happy to see. I'm being polite, validating when opportunity presents, and continuing conversations so she can talk more with no expectations. For me this is more comfortable then the silent treatment we had for several weeks. I hope we can navigate through this and remain friends because I feel it's best for kids, and who knows what could happen a few years from now...always hope right. Don't worry, Alice (name Mach gave me when I start getting all crazy) isn't coming back any time soon and her being nice isn't stopping me from doing anything I want to do or diverting me from my path.
So, one thing that I mentioned a little in last post that has honestly taken me off guard is attention I get from women. I don't think I flirt or put off any vibe but I seem to be talking to a lot more females then I ever have. I'm not interested in anything right now and I'm not initiating any of these talks. This has become a point of contention with my friends who see these women I'm "blowing off" and think I'm crazy. I'm perfectly content just being on my own and figuring out this new path I'm on for a little bit. There is one on marathon team that has searched me out the last 3 weeks and we've talked quite a bit and we have a lot in common. She even has MSU football and basketball season tickets... It's just friendly talking after or during the runs and hasn't went further. I won't lie it is nice to have someone show interest and pursue a little but like I said I'm very content leaving it in the friend zone. New house, getting kids adjusted and enjoying them, my new life, training, and football season (yeah I'm excited to get that part of my life back) should keep me busy enough for the foreseeable future.
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
