Getting Back to Me

[needgrace]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((RT)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

i am so so sorry that you are going through this.. i admire your strength to try and get through work today..

after work, please call your dearest closest friends or family so that you are not alone..

you will get through this... you have already shown yourself that you have the strength.. breathe dear RT and post a lot right now.

i did a walking meditation once and just told myself over and over "May I be at peace. May I be happy." I started saying it anytime the pain of my D came up... it helped me. find some words to repeat that calm and soothe your heart..

(((((((((((((((((((((((RT)))))))))))))))))))))))))

[RealityTrip]

Just received: TXT from W: I can't get out of this bed. I am F*cked up. I love u and I feel terrible.

I don't think I should respond. I don't know what she wants from me anyway.

Thank you PSpin for being here for me. I do have a therapist. I am going to call her for an appt. She doesn't see people on Friday's though. I have been thinking of some GAL to get me out of here this weekend. Maybe to my friends house 3 hrs away. Or maybe invite them down.

I've been gone to work for less than 3hrs and now the text why is she doing this?

[RealityTrip]

Another one: TXT from W: Will you please come home for lunch today?

I already said no to that this morning. What do I do?

[Valeska19]

I think now is the time to take care of you right now.

I know it's going to feel incredibly unloving but this is her choice. She is the one creating turmoil in her heart.

Give her the space she needs to figure it out. Give yourself the space to work through your feelings.

[RealityTrip]

If anybody is reading... I guess I just ignore the Text and go dark now??? She just sent another one: TXT from W: "Please answer me... I will respect ur wishes later. Please come home for lunch."

I have no idea what to do. I'm frozen.

Grace thanks so much for supporting me. I am trying to just stay calm. I don't know what I expected, but last night when my W looked at me and said she was divorcing me, everything stopped. She said it. She really said it. Then she asked if she could hold me and wanted to sleep in our bed. ???????? She's been so hysterical. If I had the ability to commit her I might have done it. She is acting like someone is coming to take her away forcefully rather than someone making a decision of their own accord. I don't understand.

[RealityTrip]

She just called my office knowing I would have to answer it. She asked me to come home for lunch. I said no. She begged. I said why? She said because I don't feel like we have any closure. I said that's your choice. You are packing the care and leaving me for AP today. Me coming home for lunch isn't gong to change that. That is your choice. We sat in silence for 45 seconds and I said I have to get back to work. She said bye. I said bye.

I have no clue what I am doing. Everything I have learned is gone. I can't access my tools. I'm lost.

[RealityTrip]

I think now is the time to take care of you right now.

I know it's going to feel incredibly unloving but this is her choice. She is the one creating turmoil in her heart.

Give her the space she needs to figure it out. Give yourself the space to work through your feelings.

Thank you so much Val. I needed to hear that.

[Valeska19]

Next time she asks... don't make it about her and her choice.

Tell her that you need space right now and you need to take care of you... and that you would really appreciate it if she could respect your wishes.

[Positivespin]

Go away for the weekend............

again, she made the mess..............you have gone above and beyond in overtuyres

[Positivespin]

Again, she wants to be the victim in the mess she caused