I think we will stay at the house tonight. We may be there to eat and then go to the festival depending on the condition D3 is in when I pick her up from daycare.
I am such a moron that my first reaction was " Is she inviting me to go with them since she told me where they were going?????"
Stop mind reading PS
Like lefty, because I have been focusing on me and not snooping I have zero clue whats going on in her life. So when a nugget like this falls I think its a sign.
Then, like lefty, I think that if I dont reply to clarify I am being "distant"- which is one of the excuses she gave me for leaving me. I would be acting like "more of the same".
What Im learning about myself the more/longer that im alone with myself is that I lost who I was because I always wanted her to be happy. I could never say no to her. I stopped inserting "ME" in "US". If she originally fell in love with me- I was no longer that person.
So this does all boil down to respect. She stopped respecting me because all I was doing was what she wanted. In turn I was becoming more and more depressed.
So now im anxious about whether to respond or not and how if I do.
So I wont respond. Instead I will act as if I never got the email. I have a weekend with D3- That is ALWAYS awesome!
Thanks for reading folks.....appreciate you VERY much:)
ME 38 W 37 T18 M5 D3 BD 1/7/13 PA Conf 2/11/13- Ongoing 2nd simultaneous affair Confirmed 4/19/13 W gets APT and begins transition out 5/29/13 First mediation appt 12/19/13
