All these niceties lately and new, honest communication. Then I find H's fake profile on fb and his only friend, OW. Idiot uses his real name but blocked me and dds. My girlfriend, who is new to fb, asks 'why does your H have 2 fb profiles?' He just made it last Sunday.
What do I do??? The really crazy thing is that I was starting to trust and believe him. The communication that we've had recently was sincere, without the dead/glazed look in H's eyes that was there the past couple of years. He seemed like he was trying to stay engaged.
Then why would he start things up with her again? I'm crushed.
But the I've read a lot about mlc and, given the depression/withdrawal stage, I've been suspecting or expecting a dip back into replay.
But the outright deceit is too much. I feel he's used me to get back with the kids. Can't they see that the upkeep needed to maintain a double life is going to ruin relationship with kids anyways?
Do I continue to try to be the lighthouse? Say enough is enough - H obviously has a decision to make and I'm not going to be a second choice? How the he!! do dbers live with spouses that have outright affairs? Sorry I don't know how to handle this. I was here one year ago. And I lost my sh!t and I'm trying not to be that same reactive person. But I don't know what to do this time around.
And I'm so confused. H really seemed to open up about true feelings. It was remarkable because it's so far out of his normal character. But it was all a lie.
I need a weigh in here please! We have MC in 2 weeks, can't wait that long. I'm really nervous about addressing this over phone or in person, because I've believed him! Send a short text - H, your decision has been made. Goodbye. And he's moving right across from my work! FML!
I need direction please! What's my ultimate goal? I want a restored marriage still. But I feel like the biggest fool in the world considering a future with H. Don't see that happening now. Most of all, I don't want to be H's jail warden. I will not babysit him or worry about his fidelity.
Is he close to waking up from mlc? Is it worth keeping my heart open anymore?
