Sooo... Some thoughts on why I feel this trip was significant...
~ I think H saw that he could have fun/be happy while spending a significant amount of time with his family. He didn't even want to go out to eat with us last summer. Any activity we did was with other family members, and he would text the whole time.
~ I think H saw that he and I could interact positively for an extended period of time. The drive gave us an opportunity to have conversations about stuff - nothing heavy or R/M related, but just two people talking. It was nice
~ I think H saw how much the boys enjoy being with him and vice versa. This was definitely a bonding experience.
~ I thought (and I hope he did too) that he and I worked well as a team during this vacation, easily making decisions along the way.
~ I am so incredibly happy that we had a wonderful vacation in which the boys had fun, were totally unaware of what is going on with their father, and will have nothing but happy memories surrounding this trip no matter what happens in the future.
~ I feel like we have moved closer, more like we were before his beach trip. BUT, I am working hard to stuff any expectations way down. FT is no doubt still around. Since she seems to like to pull sh!t as she becomes more desperate (talking to me, beach trip, etc.), I have no idea what she could be scheming next. I guarantee its something.
And H continues to move up, down, and all around...
H comes up to bed a little before midnight last night wearing only his birthday suit. Now don't get too excited, he often sleeps this way because clothes can make him itchy. Still, I found it quite interesting...
Had me scratch his back, and rub lotion on him. Spent the rest of the night in bed.
That's where I'm at folks. Lots of interesting stuff. I've missed you guys, have been trying to read and get caught up with everyone.
Thoughts and feedback always appreciated
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
