DB seemingly backfired w/ my H???

[Mimi00]

I kind of think that your H offering some greenback dollah scratch is his way of reaching out. It is a guy thing.

Here is an excellent opportunity to validate him. How do you think you might do that?

hmmm... I won't tell him that date is when they want me to start.... but tell him I thought about what he said, and he made great points (stroke his ego?), so I will wait 30 days and I appreciate his offer will take whatever he wants to give.

He told me to make a list of the things I would need in order to make the move go smoothly. So I will do that. (I don't need much I don't plan to take anyting but my dog and clothes. I will need first months rent/deposit/pet deposit, but I plan to have that together my self, but maybe he can cover a portion of that?)


In my focusing on my self... I totally forgot today is H's birthday.
I feel like a bad person

His family doesn't celebrate birthdays really, so the first birthday he celebrated w/ cake & gifts was our first year of dating and I've always made it a point to do something special on his birthday.
But since I've been living in the twilight zone for the past few weeks with this "dissolution, maybe we shouldn't be together, I can't love you like you need to be loved".... I totally did not catch we are not in the month of July.

o_O