Today is the worst day of my life. Last night after a really great evening together my W broke down. She told me that while she was out of town, her AP surprised her and showed up at her hotel on her birthday. She has been "sick" about telling me. Everything progressed. The AP gave her an ultimatum again to come to her by Saturday. Last night my W said she is divorcing me and leaving today to go be with the AP. Then she took it back. Then she said it again. She has been crying all morning saying she knows she is making a mistake and she doesn't know what's wrong with her. She is sobbing. She wanted to hug and kiss and hold me but I didn't allow it. I told her that I thought she was making a mistake but I could not do anything about it. That this is her choice and that I love her. I told her I cannot have any contact with her that she can reach me through my sisters. She kept asking me to hug her (I couldn't), telling me she's sorry and confused over and over. Telling me she destroyed us... She told me over and over that she loves me. Crying, crying, crying. Saying she can't get over her guilt and shame. Saying this is what she deserves.
She'll be gone when I get home.
I came to work. I can't breathe.
Me(F):40 WAW:44 T:13yrs M:9yrs BD:2/12 (I saw a text) ILYBINILWY: 5/12 PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11) S:2/13 Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13 W moves home to R: 10/13
